one of those days–> 9-Feb-10

one of those days when i felt a lot happier at the end of the day than in the morning not that morning is any happier cos i dread reaching office all the time. but one of those days when u feel awsme at the end of the day was 2de…

i was happy that i had some work to do which i knew would consume most of my day which would be peppered intermittently by coffee breaks and lunch..the whole day was nothing much to speak off except that i was quite cheerful through out…things started getting interesting only when vivek called up and asked me some stuff abt the graphics card he was using to run NFS shift and ATI’s problem with Nvidia’s physX acceleration…which is when he mentioned one other PU fren anil being in bangalore as well….somehow between talk..we decided o meet up for dinner at domino’s and i started looking forward for it as well…

we met up at 8 at domino’s as decided and we started chatting up amidst food abt studies and work and their lack of as they are embarking on MD stuff …arbit banter catching up on college stuff..trips travels frens everything came up…we then headed to polar bear for ice creams ….there amidst 2 sundaes we continued…topics ranged from capitalism, US, india, OZ blah blah..we were also discussing how each indian city compares with other cities..the rich there…gujjus marwadis and so on…it was fun chatting…we finally decided to get home as it was nearing 10 pm and the polar bear guys were giving not so subtle hints abt getting lost as well…me and anil walked back home and vivek took off on his dio…anyways looking forward for some more nice hangouts with them..lets see…till next post…

Nik

2010
02/09
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What is the most difficult thing in this world

The most difficult thing is this world is to say sorry and mean it…we all make mistakes a lot many times than we would like but when it comes to asking an apology, how many of us would like to apologise..hardly anyone cos we are all egotists and nothing less than god himself in our own eyes but in reality we are all mere humans prone to errors and erroneous ways..then why is it so difficult to say sorry when we actually make a mistake..

This is cos, we basically presume ourselves to be infallible and hence above all faults even when we make a mistake knowingly or unknowingly..What we also don’t realize when we make a mistake, is that how much it hurts someone else we hurt…when we make a mistake unknowingly we expect the other person to understand and we ourselves seldom think beyond ”I am also human “ stuff and mouth a perfunctory apology in the form of a sorry

The problem arises when we make a mistake in full consciousness cos we all know what the repercussions of making it..we are completely aware of what we have done and its intended audience…sometimes we are able to conceal the mistake we made sometimes we are able to conceal the mistake we made and if at all we are discovered then we all blame everyone else or the situation we are in…we do everything to wriggle out of the situation instead of accepting whatever did and apologizing for our actions…

I have been both at the making end or receiving end of mistakes and from what I have been through…unintentional error is a lot more easier to live with given that our conscience is not involved..but with the latter the guilt also plays a major role but if we can lay our conscience to rest then we don’t feel anything ..cos we have essentially laid to rest our own feedback mechanism..since there is no feedback, we stop feeling guilty and hence we start having a stronger belief that we are becoming infallible more so..when we get a hard wake up call, apologizing becomes harder and harder..cos our ego and self belief is involved and we cant see our ego hurt and we become defensive and aggressive at the same time…so at best we all say sorry and never mean it even tho that apology might not be what the other person is looking for…

The worst kind of mistake we all make is hurting a fren in full cognizance..cos a fren is someone close to us and I don’t know of what situation wud cause someone to hurt a fren and to top this mouth an unmeant apology…this is something none can be explain…it has to be understood …but even if we do hurt that person..how hard is it to apologize and mean it…

2010
02/06
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4 years to this day that i got wired in–>5-Feb-10

if u r wondering what i m talking abt, today was the day 4 years back that i got my first cell phone….necessitated by the fact that i met a good bunch of frens in dharmasthala with whom i wanted to keep in touch and since using dad s cell phone was becoming prohibitively expensive..i decided to get a new cell phone with student tariffs on some service provider…i went ahead and bought a nokia 1100 paying 2550 bucks and took a hutch sim and almost immediately i regretted cos it was eating into my pocket money a lot..and thats when i decided to ask for a raise @ home…one month later, i got fed up of paying ridiculous tariffs and i switched over from erstwhile hutch to spice student offer..tariff dropped from 1 rupee a min to 10 ps but drawback was i had to call 10 times to get thru a call but heck who cared as long as i cud call for cheap i didnt bother much..who wud..in my situation…this was followed by long hours of call…taking down contacts and chatting like it was the last day on earth and so on…

i got my first upgrade in the form of sony ericsson J230i courtesy my bro…he wanted my 1100 and so he got me a new phone to take mine…hehehe….it was a lil different and i was slightly unhappy with it as well…2 months into it i got another upgrade again thanks to bro…this time a motorola w110 or some such name…it was called motoflip…i took an instant liking cos it was just gr8 and met my needs perfectly…i was very happy with it ….and then i got started my professional career..i was transferred to coimbatore for training and days before that i took my first phone with my own earnings…a sony ericsson K550i.paying 8k..boy was i enamored by it…i was all gaga over it…and it was just awsme .music camera and everything i needed..simply superb…meanwhile my monthly bills continued to rise and rise like the petroleum prices ..but i still was not complaining…i was then shifted to hebbal office from old airport road and here the spice connectivity went to the dogs…and i was forced to take up another connection from airtel.and taking a new cell Samsung Star 3G..in the meanwhile, my life had progressed from being with the original grp of frens to a lot more frens than i cud even remember, my phone memory was almost full..i had gone on from a recluse to a full blown extrovert…chatting and calls were eating a lot of my time..i had my share of good and bitter experiences..

only now off late have i been realising how i have actually progressed, i have changed from someone who was as comfortable in solitude as in crowd to a ADD ( attention deficit disorder)afflicted guy..constantly in need of someone to be in contact with…i guess many of us are becoming addicted to the mobile or some form of connectivity..4 years is a long time to be plugged in..i have tried going offline twice before without much success

today when i was stuck in my office bus did i realise how dependent have i become on my mobile..that i worry more abt my mobile battery life than my own hunger…that i worry abt mobile balance than account balance…my hands twitchingly reach out for mobile the instant i wake up..i msg call listen to music or game on my mobile a lot more than my physical interaction with colleagues or frens…most of the time i end up wondering how people who seem so affable over call or chat end up being so grumpy in person…anyways i guess its time to log out from the grid and enjoy my old days of solitude..maybe not completely but i shud make a beginning somewhere and i feel the best way is to reduce my dependency on my mobile and also start paying lesser amount of mobile bills..maybe its time i started this quite seriously…i have thot out my steps carefully..its time i put them into actions and go off the grid ….ll keep u guys posted on my action points…meanwhile i feel most of us shud actually go off the grid once in a while to get some mental peace..what say

Nik

2010
02/05
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Tirupati trip

this was a sudden decision to go to tirupati and an even more spontaneous decision to walk all the way…the trip was amazing…..

left bangalore by 8 am on wednesday cos the bus was late by 15 mins….and i promptly dozed off…to be woken up somewhere for lunch…since i hadnt had my breakfast i sat down for a major lunch innings..andhra full meals….it was like test match….we managed to reach tirupati by 1 30…and almost immediately we boarded bus to alepiri to start the climb….we started the climb by 2pm at alepiri and me and dad started outpacing mom and her colleague…the total was 3665 steps and 9kms and me was hauling the 6-8kg backpack i had bought in singapore….the initial 1000 steps were the hardest..we started off with gusto to realize that this climb was going to be hard…we took breaks every 60- 80 steps..had lots of juice and stuff..goli soda at lotsa places…enjoyed…somewhere close to 2000 steps we reached gali gopura where we got the ticket for pedestrian pilgrims and then continued….me and dad made good time…somewhere close to the final 500 steps started cramps in legs after which we took time out for relaxing and had an extended break….last 500 were the toughest…somehow we managed it and the total climb took us 4 hours to complete…we went to pushpagiri math where we had taken a room, freshened up and headed off to Woodside hotel for chow…we initially confused woodside with an impostor hotel but then we got the actual place and again had a gr8 dinner after which we stood in the queue by 8 pm and after an awsme darshan which we managed to complete by 10 pm….headed back to room by 11ish and straight to sleep

Thursday: mom and her colleague headed for another darshan and i headed off to get my head tonsured / shaved…initially i was skeptical of getting it done..then i just went ahead..got it done..had a gr8 bath and then breakfast of 4 vadas and masala dosa…meanwhile took a cap as well..hehehe…took a bus to tirupati and then gopalaraja swamy temple visit from 12 to 130….took the return volvo by 2 15..again 15 mins late..me and dad had an awsme convo abt life and rat race…and now home at 9 pm followed by polishing off 3 jowar rotis and few side dishes….:)…sleep in few mins after some catching up with frens…till next post

Nik

2010
02/04
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Book Review: Capitalism: the unknown ideal

the author of this fantabulous book is Ayn Rand..someone i respect a lot and whose writing i adore a lot…i have seen either people cringe or worship at the mention of Ayn Rand but one thing is sure..u can never walk away from thinking abt her work

this book is a compilation of essays abt Capitalism and how even tho its is opposed almost through out the world is the only economic system to create an equal playing field for every man to grow to his full potential and be what he wants to be…how every other economic system is based on subduing the ones who have the potential to grow in order to create a level playing field or as they say where they actually shunt the ones who can grow and benefit the society..this book is a must read to those who seek to understand the various economic models employed arnd the world…in totality and not in simple terms as is usually explained…amazing book to get an in depth view of how everything is inter related with multiple other things in this world….do read it….one book i can suggest to gain a little better view of this world we live in…and to understand what actually is the lesser of all the evils we perceive…till next book

Nik

2010
02/01
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Manic monday–> 1 Feb 10

today is one of those days i wudnt wan2 relive no matter wat..for some obvious reasons like sunday being amongst the best..monday was kind of wake up call and what a wake up call it was..read on to know more

i didnt have my breakfast at home so i decided to have it at office and since i was bored of usual stuff i ordered corn flakes which was served in Styrofoam bowl….my left eyebrow started twitching when i was having it and for some reason when getting up after finishing it, i stumbled and lo and behold..the left overs spilled all over my trousers..oh damn i thot…i somehow managed to clean it up a lil better

after finishing my work for the morning, i was heading for lunch..i had my second bad omen and what resulted was an almost fight with sree cos i let out a loose statement bcos of some frustoo..shit…

after this came my third visitation…my sony charger almost broke..damn

finally came a good omen…my right eyebrow twitched and i kinda relaxed cos i knew my day ll finally get better….lots things i was expecting to go wrong didnt…some went right and here i am dreading the next cos my left twitched agaiin…

Moral of the day: when ur left eyebrow twitches…u r screwed…

Nik

2010
02/01
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fridayyyyeeeeaaaahhh–>29-jan-10

this is probably one of those days when everything seemed topsy turvy and more…

the day began with my bus journey to office and on the way we passed veeresh theatre which was playing rann..so me, kit and gc decided to leave office a lil early to make it to the movie….i reached office at 9 and when i opened my mail..i had a pleasant surprise…i finally had some work to finish off..so i started off by attacking the work so that i cud watch the movie..all thru the day …had an sn awsme time finishing it up..interspersed with loads of convo and coffee break and towards evening i informed my lead that i m going home and i started off…

no sooner did i go out of office, i got a call from my lead asking if i cud come back and since i had boarded a bus for home i cudnt go back…we three headed to the movie theatre and there we found that movie was at 7 30 and we had more than an hour to kill…we hogged on chaat..and then the movie which was quite ok..watchable but easily cud have been shorter as well…but well made overall except for a few goof ups…back home at 10 and straight to sleep cos i had office on saturday as well…thanks to me leaving early on friday..arghhhhh…anyways saturday turned out much better …till next post

Nik

2010
01/30
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i hate…

i just lost a post…a post that was arnd 500 words…and i m unable to recollect what i wrote atleast all that i had written..maybe i ll write a much complete post next..till next post and sorry for the inconvenience…blame wordpress

Nik

2010
01/28
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Funny Incident–>24-Jan-10

this is probably the funniest thing to happen to me today..i opened my #fb account..nope not Russell Peters fb ( f***ing BJ) but facebook…i went thru all the invitations i have received for various stuff to find a unique request from one of my frens,,,called networked blogs..so i decided to check it out as to what is and i went ahead and confirmed my following to her blog and when i decided to register my own blog for the networked thing it asked me something unique….are u the owner of this blog…i clicked yes..next question…get 9 more frens to confirm that u r the owner…and i cud only send it to 16 people on my list for confirmation…my question is

1. why wud anyone wan2 register my blog in their name

2. what if the 16 people i sent the invitation too don’t confirm my ownership what ll happen

3. Isn’t the whole exercise a lil too dumb??

whatever…lots more arbit stuff thru my head on this topic…unable to post it here cos it seems a lot vague and irrelevant to this topic…dumb thing to end a gr8 day.. till next post

Nik

2010
01/24
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Twisted Thursday–> 21-Jan-10

this was one day which i will likely not forget in sometime to come bcos of the variation in my mood i experienced in a day and also cos of the event of meeting some childhood frens of mine at a frens reception…

the day began quite normally but somehow it started showing signs of abnormality almost immediately…i got into the bus and was quite sleepy owing to some stuff prev night and when kit got on i was still sleepy and i dunno from where i assumed he was pissed at me…at office i was bombarded with calls 3 from credit card companies with a duration of 10 mins ..following this i called kit for coffee break and when i told him what i thot he told me there was nothing of that sort..following a quite ordinary lunch..i was working on some arbit stuff when my team lead came to me and asked me to deliver a ppt on our project overview to clients of another project showcasing the work we do in my company…i went thru the ppt and there was a rehearsal sorta thing..somehow i was not comfortable with delivering it but since i had no choice i went ahead trying to improvise on the spot only to realise that must have been amongst the worst ppt’s i have ever delivered…feeling somewhat sad abt myself..i got into the bus at 6 30 and when i was near malleswaram, my schoolmate gayathru msged me asking what time i was turning up at vinod’s marriage..i then realised i had got my dates wrong and since the venue was en route home i decided to make it to the reception…i got down at tollgate and walked to the venue reaching at 8 20 pm when i shud have been there by 8pm ..i couldnt help it cos there was a humongous traffic snarl all the way..

at the reception i met praveen aakanksh roshan varun gayathri and harish..it was a sorta reunion thingy there with lotsa jokes and leg pulling happening..i was all excited to meet them and felt nice to be with them..talked a lot and we got in the queue to wish the couple..only that the queue took 45 mins to end cos there was a major queue up…from one traffic jam to another jam all in one night is too much to handle by any standards..hehehe..anyways after wishing the couple we headed for the chow to find out again we had to queue..arghhhhh this was the heights and i was damn hungry..praveen suggested we take the back door entry for the food and me praveen gayathri headed towards to exit to make an entrance…somehow we got into the food queue and started wolfing down food at a brisk pace…food was good chatter was gr8 and company was the best..enjoyed myself thoroughly…bid adieu to all by 10 15 pm and then was dropped home by praveen and then sleep at 2 am cos my memory card was screwed up….unsuccessful attempt..sleep ensued and back to office for a friday…

Nik

2010
01/22
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